autism, communication, Disability

about communication

sometimes I see posts asking about AAC. I don’t like how many want proving can use communication device before giving a device. It don’t make understanding to me. No one has to prove they can use their voice before they use it. I grow up stuck inside myself not able to communicate. When I twenty I given a computer to communicate with but it didn’t help. I never communicate before I didn’t understand words I needed to learn and understand and only picture understood. I tried many devices and now found best one for me. I not be able if says prove using before give.

give AAC fastest can and teach to use. Nobody learn talk in silence nobody learn AAC without help. Use to teach and help understand what means. All life I speaking all life only caring what tell voice. I not going voice. Voice not only way voice not more important. Other ways speaking if you listen.

don’t wait get AAC as early you can.

autism

emotions

yesterday I was at archery and someone was talking about autism. They said autistic show no emotion. This is wrong and makes me mad. I’m autistic. I show emotions.

I show in my body. I move and scream and flap and more.

then they say I’m not like that kid that boy don’t smile and you do. That also makes me mad. I am like them. I am older and been made to pretend I normal like neurotypical person. I’m not. What smile means for me is different to what smile means for neurotypical. Smile doesn’t mean happy for me. Face expression is different for me. I don’t like smile or laughing because people think I’m being happy. One day when I was child I break ankle and I laughing and laughing. People think I’m OK because I’m laughing but I not okay. I didn’t understand how emotion works I still don’t understand emotions but I was forced to show things I don’t feel or understand and then I look like I’m happy or okay when everything maybe is terrible and leaving me suffering. I’m different to the kid because I been made do things that hurt me for everyone neurotypical be more comfortable but I’m not comfortable. I’m angry and hurting and makes people think they know me and they don’t. I’m older and had different life but I know autism and I can say autism is like this so listen. Just because older don’t mean different. How many adults you know that same as kids? If I see kid and say but you not like them you can drive is it right to you? Don’t treat autism different just because ages different. We know we understand we can help.

Disability, Social

Archery

I learn use this still. Be slow learn but want talk.
about archery
I love archery. I have fun do archery. Long time be tell not can do archery. I tell d I want do archery long time. Be tell no can’t do. Tell I shake too much tell I not be strong hold bow. Tell I not safe do sport. D say why not? I go try archery. Everybody nice help. Archery fun. I very like it. be same like everybody not say no be same do have fun learn good. Archery nice people. I want do archery many more be better. I can do other people say no wrong. Let try see maybe be good try fun.
bye

autism, communication, Disability, Social

Communication

I have a fish. My fish is happy.
he can’t talk, he can’t say what he wants, but he still can communicate.
he swims around fast and goes up and down his tank.
he looks at you and shows he wants food.
my fish is saying a lot.
I have a dog, my dog can’t talk.
he moves his tail and shakes his body. He goes closer if he likes being touched. He goes down when he’s scared. He makes noises to communicate. My dog can’t use words but he is communicating all the time.
I have cats, they can’t speak. They run and jump and play. They make sounds and move their bodies. They rub and push you when they happy. They bite and scratch when they upset.
my cats don’t use words, my cats are communicating.
I have a lot of pets, they don’t speak but they are saying many things.
I am a person. I don’t speak. I say many things with my body and my sounds. I don’t use words but I am saying many many things.
you can listen to the pets, they don’t speak. You can listen to me, I don’t speak. We are all saying many things, they don’t need words to be said.
communicating is more, communicating has many many ways.
see our languages and you might see a whole new world.

Written with Unity 144

autism, Disability, Social

we had a new support worker today and it was hard. don’t like new things and people never know what go wrong and something always go wrong. was very frustrated with the Vantage Lite it’s going wrong lots.
I heard the support worker say a word I didn’t like to hear and had only heard online for many years. I was bothered hearing something I had hear for abusing me most my life. I don’t understand why people say bad things to hurt us disabled.
it was long day and scary. Had to try explain I don’t know feeling hungry have no interoception. Can’t feel hungry thirsty go toilet not know pain or sick until very bad. I’m expected to know but it doesn’t fit in my head. Feelings are strange to me I didn’t know people had feelings until I adult. Now hard understand get asked you hungry you thirsty you need toilet and I don’t know. I never understand those.

autism, Social

smile

smile
I hate told smile
I don’t show feelings same neurotypical person
my happy look different to you
I happy stim not showing on face
don’t ask why I not smiling
it makes me upset
I don’t need be smiling to be happy
I happy hand fly moving
my body show happy not face
don’t tell me smile don’t ask me why not smile
I be happy my way

written with Unity 144 location

autism, Disability

autistics speak for me

a lot parents say autistic adult not speak for their child because their child not speak not use toilet have bad meltdown and hurt themselves
I don’t like say personal things but I tired hear this things
I am autistic I am nonverbal I can’t use toilet I hurt myself everyday I cannot live with no help I need person with me and watching me all the time if I alone I hurt myself badly
when you say autistic don’t speak for your child because they don’t do this things you are saying I can’t exist
you are saying I have no rights you are cutting away my communication I am here I am like your child
autistics speak for me you need to shut up and listen
you need to hear when you told what doing is bad for us
because of people like you I was twenty-five before anyone give me any communication but I always was speaking my own way I scream I hurt myself I bite and growl I was saying something but no one listen to my language
I was hurt and made to be a puppet I do worse hurting
I have marks all time biting myself hitting myself
I never not be able live alone never be able not have help but I am not bad I can be worthwhile
you say adult autistic not speak for your child you are making things like before when I be hurt because trying make look like you accept who we are and celebrate us we are worth more than you know
autistics speak for me

Written with the AAC software Unity 144